January 2nd, 2011: Redd Columbia

Time flies when you’re having fun. It flies even faster when you’re logged in to second life whether you’re having fun or not. Sometimes I sit back and think about how much time has passed from the day I created my account, or how many hours of my life have been spent in-world. Of course my initial reaction is shock and/or horror, and then I quickly cover that up with excuses that make all that wasted time seem okay. I was making money. I was using it as a creative outlet. I had nothing better to do. The truth is, I just refused to do anything else.

In 8 days I will be half dead. That is, I’ll be leaving my second life for good. When finally moving to Chicago after 11 or so years of wishing I could be here, I decided that I should hold on to that time that seems to slip through my fingers.

This week I’ve been playing hostess in real life. Time still flies, but in just four days I’ve accomplished more than I have in months. Shopping with my cousin who I haven’t seen in ages, going out to eat, deep conversation, snowboarding, checking out people walking by, drinking, laughing, throwing a surprise birthday party. Actually, all of these things have happened just today.

I feel like the last few years have stood still for me. A lot of good things have happened, but nothing that has really brought me a  whole lot farther than where I was a few years ago. If there’s one thing that SL has provided me with, it’s instant gratification. I’m an instant gratification kind of girl, but once I step back and take a look at where I am, all the quick injections of entertainment have left me unsatisfied. Lately, I think about this every day.

It’s time to stop removing myself and get along with it. Time to get married, have kids, live every day instead of just speeding through it just to get to the next one. Yup, I think this definitely shows my mindset in both worlds, and yup, I’m ready to log off.

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Redd Columbia is a 24-year-old who lives with her boyfriend of 6 years along with her perfect freckle nosed 4-year-old dog PW and his cat. She can usually be found knitting at home and watching House, or window shopping for things she can’t afford. She also loves a good haiku.

 

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